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Open (Door) Minded

Every minute, about one hundred and eight people in the world die.

Before I finish writing this entry, so many last breaths will be taken, so many eyelids lowered, so many hands gone limp.

And yet, here we are. We still wake up every day with thousands of opportunities spread in front of us, a breakfast fit for kings. Even the people who seem to have nothing, who don’t even know when or if their next meal is coming, are able to choose what attitude they’re going to take. They can choose what to do with their bodies to the extent that they are able to use them. They can decide which words will leave their lips. Those of us who have the necessities—and, usually, far more—are blessed with opportunity beyond reason.

But somehow, somehow, it doesn’t seem to be enough. After all, if I were more beautiful, I would have so many more options. People would likely be sweeter to me, and potential lovers would take more interest. If I were thinner, I could buy cuter clothes and not have to pay a ridiculous amount of money for them. If my feet were smaller…if I had more money…if my hair was nicer…if my college had bigger dorms…if I had that television set…if I’d only gotten that job…

It seems so hard when we see the things we wanted pass us by. We make decisions we aren’t happy with, our relationships don’t work out, and we don’t get the promotion. Sometimes these things are mildly annoying; sometimes, they’re downright earth-shattering.

You know what, though? Either way, life goes on. We find ourselves smiling, and eventually, laughing. We meet new people. We get a different job.

Life does not offer one chance to be happy; it gives us a nearly infinite amount. Until the day that we, too, take our last breaths, we have the opportunity to feel joy in our lives. How silly would it be to waste that opportunity because we’re too busy bemoaning the happiness that slipped past us?

We never really know how anything is going to turn out. You could go on a blind date to appease a friend and meet the love of your life, or you could marry the love of your life and find you didn’t understand that person at all. Either way, you won’t know until it happens. There is only one choice you can make that has a predictable outcome, and that is the choice to do nothing. When you make that choice, you’re choosing not to find joy. You’re choosing to relinquish all the other decisions you could have made. You’re choosing to give up on a life that’s waiting for you.

Life is a hallway to walk through, a series of thousands of rooms with thousands of doors. Sometimes, those doors are locked when we reach them, and sometimes, they bang shut right in front of our faces. But for every door that closes, another one must open. While it’s true that you can’t gain without the possibility of loss, it’s also true that losing one thing may very well allow you to gain something else.

There are no dead ends.

Rock bottom is still a bottom, not an abyss; you can climb back out.

Every minute, about one hundred and eight people in the world close their eyes for the last time.

…And about two hundred and fifty open theirs for the first.


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Make Happiness Happen March (AKA: Things Coming Into Place and Self-Photography Thoughts)

Some of you who’ve been around me may have realized that I’ve been in a little bit of a slump lately. That’s one reason why this blog, which I’d like to keep more upbeat and positive, hasn’t been updated so much. However, I’ve done some life re-evaluation this weekend, and I think things are going to get much better from here! I have so much planned for the future and I’m very excited to get started.

One of these things is the month of self-portraits that I mentioned in my last post. You know, although I thought the project would be interesting, I’d never really put any thought into why someone would do it. Here’s my mini-list:

♥ Flexing creativity! Unless you’re going to sit in front of your webcam each day and shoot thirty identical shots, taking a photograph of yourself for 30 days (or 365, as the flickr group does!) forces you to think outside the box to keep things interesting. There’s also a list of mini-challenges you can take on, and I definitely plan to try some of them.

♥ It helps you be more comfortable with yourself. If you have to really look at your face and figure out how you look best, then you start to realize which of your features you like, and this leads to appreciating your physical appearance more. While it’s not something any of us needs to get stuck on, there is so much negativity about self-image out there now.  Of course beauty comes from the inside, but that doesn’t mean you’re ugly on the outside, either! You can shine from the inside out.

♥ You’re able to see how much you change as time goes on. Admittedly, most of us don’t have radical changes in physical appearance in a month…but imagine this project on a year-long scale! Either way, it’s fun to have a month of your life documented in pictures.

♥ Improving photography skills. Right, so that’s kind of a given. Still!

I’m sure there are more reasons to do this project, and maybe I’ll find them out as the month wears on.

Moooving right along…

Another good thing that’s going on is that I’ve done the tweaks to the blog’s appearance that I said were going to happen soon. There will likely be more tweaking in the future, but at least I have a teeny bit more originality than using the headers wordpress provides.

Finally, as the photograph in this post shows (the first of my self-portrait collection!), I am actually taking my vitamins again, after not doing so well with keeping up with it in February. YAY! I’m going to try and stick with it this time. (:

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” – Maria Robinson

So maybe March is not a themed month on my blog, but for me personally, it seems to be Make Happiness Happen March. What projects are you guys working on?

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tilt two: walk on the ocean, step on the stones. flesh becomes water, word becomes bone.

Things I Love Thursday

♥ The beach! I had an absolutely amazing time this past week, hanging with my family and Kyley and swimming in the ocean and eating out and burying my toes in the sand. There is nothing better than the sound of the waves.

♥ New books. I bought three novels this week–one by Neil Gaiman, one by Rachel Cohn, and one by Jonathan Safran Foer. The latter wrote one of my favorite books, Everything is Illuminated, and I’m saving his novel for last. 🙂

♥ Playing laser tag with my little brother, my mom, and Kyley. The place itself was pretty pathetic, but we were the only ones playing, and it was fun to chase them around…though a little sad when we were all just standing in a circle, talking and shooting each other every so often. Haha!

♥ Being with my family. I won’t pretend that they don’t drive me crazy, but we’re a tight-knit group, and I know I’m going to miss them. It was wonderful to have this last week together.

♥ Eating tons of fruit. Grapes, apples, plums, cherries, nectorines–it’s been so long since I’ve had a lot of fruit, and I’ve definitely been taking advantage of it.

♥ MORE heart-shaped sunglasses. Somehow, on my first trip to the beach, my white heart-shaped glasses ended up broken…but it was okay, because I found heart-shaped glasses in almost every store I went to and ended up buying three new pairs to replace them!

♥ Drinking lots of water. At some point, I really want to lay off the soda, though I don’t drink as much as most people…having so much bottled water around has gotten me used to drinking that again. It’s just more refreshing. Soda dehydrates, the sugar in it can make your breath rank, blahblahblah, drink water!

Stardust. It was a good novel, sort of The Last Unicorn-ish…I want to see the movie rendition now. 😀

♥ Sunsets. ‘Nuff said.

♥ Kittens. Ours was waiting for us in a teeny little bag when we got back home. Cuuute~!

♥ Getting to know Kyley. We’ll be going to college together soon, and it was really nice to get closer to her beforehand….we’ll both make new friends on campus, but for now, it’s nice to know we’ll at least have each other.

♥ Coming home. The beach is one of my favorite places to be, especially when there’s a breeze and the waves are nice and the sun is paiting the sky different shades, but man, it’s good to be back. Three more days, and I’m moving out!

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we might make love in some sacred place.

photo from flickr

Some time ago, I was sitting in the truck while my mom took Hunter to his class. She was gone at least a good ten minutes, so I sat there, listened to some music…then I looked up and saw birds pouring across the sky in droves. Little black blurs in the sky over the school, couples dipping and soaring in bigger groups. Every time it slackened up, a few more birds would skitter across the clouds and it would begin again. It stopped as soon as Mom got back to the truck and opened the door. I felt like I’d just seen a miracle.

Yesterday, I was sitting in the car again, this time listening to Damien Rice, thinking about the birds, and I looked up to the sky and there they were. Not nearly as many, but still enough to be obvious, outlined by a pretty pink-gold sunrise. Damien Rice was “hallelujah”ing in my ear, and there were birds again.

Strange and wonderful, the things that make us want to live.


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